from being isolated and spoon-fed in high school, here comes college. though, i've already set my psyche (not my physiologic functioning and capacity), way back, i think, since grade school, that i'll take up nursing... It was still hard for me to wrap up that decision when i was in 4th year high, same year that my father passed away and which was 6 days before my birthday. kaya sinabi ko na lang sa sarili ko, "kung ano na nga lang 'yung alam ni tatay na course (degree) na kukunin ko, ayun na lang." so i went to the university for a reservation, took the entrance exam, i passed and then the...
INTERVIEW!
syempre, sa inteview nag polo-shirt ako (may points kasi yun!) kahit labag sa loob ko. ako kasi yung t-shirt na plain lang pwede na, e kaso hindi e, sinubukan kong magpa-impress. haha. nung papasok na ako ng room, me c.i. (clinical instructor) na nagturo sa akin sa isang table, dun daw ako. kaya ayun, umupo na ako. but, i could smell some connivance at that point. (kinakabahan ako! di ako magda-drop ng name dito. though, i can remember telling some of my classmates 'bout this. :D) a male c.i. came with a semi-male student, umupo sila then they started the interview... properly. english questions? patol! i answered in english. tas habang tumatagal, me mga tanong na nai-singit. "anung favorite color mo?'' and i was like, "kasama ba talaga to?" then i answered, "black (which was not really a color, i know) po saka green." and he said with a ngiting ewan, "ahh." next question: "nagcocomputer ka ba?" "opo." i answered. "ano, gaming?" "opo." and i was pertaining not with on-line games but with text twist, solitaire and minesweeper. haha. walang budget pang-internet. lol. Then his next question was a bomb! (kayo na bahala magbigay-kahulugan, pero iba naging dating sa akin) "nagweweb-cam ka ba?" hell no! feeling ko nag-hypogly ako nun. (+)cold and clammy skin, increase heart rate, nervousness, dizziness and pallor. i need a hard candy! lunok muna to compose myself then i said, "hindi po e. wala po kameng internet." :D then i saw again that smirk. goosies! tas bigla siyang pinatawag, for only God knows what the reason was. then, the student uttered "ganun lang talaga yung interview ha." so, i gave my most awkward smile (you know what i mean!) and nodded. and that scenario was one of the things that lead me into a conclusion... "kupo! si sir me tinatago!" haha. just kidding. that college life will be a one roller-coaster ride for me. ;)
another culture shocking experience was the first day of school. :'( ayoko nang alalahanin pa pero, sige sasabihin ko na din. well, it's not really just the first day, but more or less, the first month. as in isang buwan ata akong walang kausap/friends in our class. introvertion again. okay, i'll admit. sinamahan ko ng pride. gusto ko kasi sila yung kumausap sa akin, di ako sanay makipag-kaibigan at mag-initiate ng conversation. saka ang nakakaasar, bilang certified late-comer ako, pagdating ko ng room nakakulupong na yung kapampangans, marcelo students and those extroverts and soon-to-be p.r.o's were making rounds already. and i was in a corner, watching them making new friends with my earphones plugged! meron namang nagpakilala sa akin na babaeng classmate, shineyk-hands pa nga ako. sabi ko sa isip ko, "thank you, Lord!" gusto ko man i-approach yung grade school mates ko na naging classmates ko ulit... someone's buzzing... "ang pride. suplado ka!" :D so for one month, my routine: when we have to change room for another class, i'd walk with them, plug my earphones, pretend to be a chameleon (hunyango ba.). lunch time, i needed to text my hs classmate para may makasabay lang ako and one time na nakasabay ko siya nasabi ko, "hoy, aabsent na lang kaya ako sa next class ko, wala pa din akong ka-close e. magsasakit-sakitan na lang ako." i could also remember telling my nanay, "nay, wala pa din akong kaibigan. nahihirapan na ako." :( i am serious with that. pero don't you worry, marami na din naman akong friends ngayon. 326 na nga sa facebook e. haha. accomplishment ko na yun. :D
i need to bring this to a close and think of something nice and interesting to post here! *pressured.
thanks! God bless us.
