I am like in the midst of chaos now just thinking of a
simple question: Should I start working my ass out as a volunteer nurse or
keep on bumming around here in my room and get spoiled? I know, in what I
have accomplished—-passing the Nursing Licensure Exam and taking my oath as a
professional, I should be working by now. But, I guess, I am not ready for that
thing yet. Call me stupid for saying these reasons but I feel that I’m still young
to get a job, not done with my resumé, doesn't have an ID picture, got no
formal training yet and stuff. Tell me, am I just reasoning out for
my procrastination? Honestly, the will for working, most of the time, runs in
me. It really does. Yet, monster MDs and staff nurses give me creeps and
that kills this will. Just having a thought of them lecturing and scolding
you for doing less of the work because they don’t get the idea that you’re
in safe-mode for your next move so what they’re doing to you now won’t happen
and/or because you are in full swing that they think you are now crossing
on their line of work (if you just know what I mean), terrifies
me, big-time. I will save this week to chew over this dilemma and will
hope to make the best plans and decisions.
P.S. Hope, this one will not reach my mother or anyone in my
family because if it does, I’m dead. >.<
